My name is Ann Rogers Taylor. I was born in England in 1822 and married James
Whitehead Taylor in 1839 when I was 17 years old. When we were young, James heard the message
of the Gospel of Jesus Christ from the apostle Parley P. Pratt. He and I joined the Mormon Church when I was
20 years old, in June of 1841, and ever after James was engaged in that
work. He was a good man and had the gift
of being able to know and understand things that I could not. He was converted by the spirit of the Lord,
aided in its purpose by two of our neighbors who were also blacksmiths, and
also by a dream James had wherein he saw the destruction of the wicked. He understood plainly that the only escape
from that destruction was by going into the waters of baptism. Perhaps James' faith was greater than
mine. His faith was in his God and his
compelling urge was to do God's work. My
faith was in the God of the Bible and in my husband, and my love was for our
family and our neighbors. Many times I
felt that the Mormon God deprived me of my husband.
I was bitter about the Mormons. James knew it, and these feelings caused some
unhappiness between us. We left the
grave of our little Joseph in England ,
disembarked from Liverpool on September 24,
1848, and traveled across the ocean on the Sailor Prince. I saw miracles on that voyage, one being the
time when we were becalmed for many days.
My husband was asked to pray before we went to our berths, and he humbly
asked our Father in Heaven to give us fair winds. Just as he did so, the captain who was just
above us on the poop deck began cursing and blaspheming. We went to bed early and when James appeared
on deck early the next morning, the sailors shouted, "Hurrah for Mr.
Taylor! He is the man when you want
anything you must ask him to pray."
One of the sailors became very ill on the crossing and I nursed him back
to health. He told me if I wanted to
earn money I should hire a Negro woman to do the washing for the captains and
mates of seagoing vessels. This I did,
and after five years, James and I had earned enough money to buy a wagon and
two yoke of oxen for crossing the plains.
We were in New Orleans for just a few
months, then moved upriver to St.
Louis . The
cholera was very bad in New Orleans , and worse
in St. Louis .[1]
After five years in America , we went upriver to Keokuk,
and from there left to go West in the St. Louis Independent Company. I had twin babies somewhere west of Winter
Quarters, and they died of scarlet fever.
We left them in an unmarked grave, unnamed. They were the only deaths in our wagon
train--good news for everyone else, but they were my children.
Crossing the plains, my little daughter
Margaret[2] fell off the wagon tongue and was run over by
both wagon wheels. I thought she was
dead, but James administered to her, and at dinner time the next day she got
out of the wagon herself and ran after her father to see some missionaries that
were camped a little way off.
We were so low on food that one day after we
passed Bridger, all we had left were two biscuits apiece. A man drove a flock of sick sheep[3] by and he skinned some of them and cut them
up and gave portions to us and others.
It helped, but that night James told me to give one little biscuit
apiece to the children, he would have nothing, and he did not know what we
would do afterward, only that we must trust in the Lord.
James' brothers were supposed to have gone
ahead and should have met us, but all we could hear was that the Indians were
so bad they were not allowed to come out.
Then a man came into our camp asking for someone named Taylor
and he told us that James' brother William was at Bear
River waiting . It was more
than a day's journey away and James asked the man if he had any
provisions. He did, and James came back
to the wagon and told me to give the children some more supper. The next morning we passed by some
missionaries going to England . James knew some of them and asked if they had
seen William. They said William was just
behind them. James ran to meet his
brother, and then we did have a feast of fat things.
We stayed a little while in Salt Lake ,
during which time James was ordained a Seventy.
Then we left to settle in Lehi, 30 miles to the south. James built our home which was the first
house built on a city lot after it was laid out as a city. Two adobe rooms.
When we reached Lehi, we had four living
children and had buried three others.
James started the first Home Dramatic Association in Lehi during the
winter of 1854-55, and I was a member. I
had a leading part in their first performance, "Priestcraft in
Danger."
James was called on a mission in 1856. He took little bedding with him because he
wanted to leave us as comfortable as he could.
However, we were not very comfortable.
He left me with no money and only fifty pounds of flour in the
house. My only real help was my oldest
son Samuel, age 16. The first winter was
bad. We were cold and hungry, the
children had no shoes, and we had no money to buy any. Our neighbor's ox died and I asked permission
to skin it. Samuel helped skin the ox
and we dried and tanned the hide the best we could. With that leather I made the children
moccasins. The moccasins warmed their
feet but stretched to twice their original size when they became wet.
I spent many hours helping the sick and those
who were in need. When my neighbor's
baby died and they were unable to afford burial clothes I gave my little
daughter's only shirt to dress the dead baby.
The fat from the ox I used to make candles
which I needed for light while I sewed at night. When I ran out of thread, I was under the
necessity of walking to Salt Lake City
to buy another spool which cost me fifty cents.
Samuel and I plowed and planted our field
together, but the following year there was a grasshopper invasion. We fought the grasshoppers by walking up and
down the rows and killing what we could.
We saved a small corn crop which was husked, ground in a coffee mill,
and made into bread. It was our first
bread in weeks. We had been living on
dried fish and buttermilk. A neighbor
had planted a potato patch in an old willow patch. The willows sprouted when the potatoes
started growing, making it nearly impossible to dig the potatoes. I arranged with the neighbor to let us dig
the potatoes on shares and by that means we got enough for our winter supply.
There was a smallpox epidemic in Lehi and I
vaccinated nearly every child in town.
Those things I could do. I could not be happy about the Mormon Church
taking my husband. First Mormonism took
his heart and his time. Then it was the
call to Zion , twice leaving my dead babies, and then
being left by James for those years of his mission to England . I know he wrote in his journal, "...oh
how I wish that I could say as for me and my house we will serve the Lord but I
cannot for it seems as though I should
have to go and be with very few Exceptions alone in the Kingdom of God ..." It was hard to know he didn't feel I was good
enough for heaven, particularly because I sometimes wondered if I was even good
enough for earth. But what more could I
have done? I left everything and
everyone I knew in England .
I bore fourteen children, pioneered a cold, hard country; tried to be a good
neighbor, and kept my family together the only way I knew how to do it. Knowing what I do now, if I were God looking
down from Eternity upon Ann Rogers Taylor, I believe He would tell me,
"Even if someone else might have done better or been happier, you
did everything you knew how to do. You
kept your family together. You were
faithful to your husband. You held a
place in time so your posterity could be born in freedom and know the Gospel of
Jesus Christ in its fullness. It was a
hard time to live. Not many could have
done as well as you. You say you
resented the Mormon God and you loved only the God of the Bible, your family
and your neighbors; yet, I am the God of the Bible, and to love your
fellow man is the best way there is to love me. You are my daughter and I love
you."
I hope my posterity knows that I not only
suffered for the benefit of my children; I also suffered for their children,
and for their grandchildren, and for theirs.
(factual information for
this narrative- prepared by Anne T. Chambers, was taken from:
1. The Journal of James Whitehead Taylor ,
2. "The Life of Ann Rogers Taylor,"
by her daughter Rose Rebecca Taylor Wadsworth,
3. A Sketch of the Life of Ann Rogers Taylor,
by her granddaughter Ethel Taylor Scalley
4. The records of the St. Louis Independent
Company.)
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